Holly’s Happenings

With the stress that has gone on in the past 24 hours, I’ve spent the better part of this evening chilling out and watching some TV with my husband and daughter. I don’t know if it’s just something they’re doing this weekend or if it’s something that they’ve done for a while since it’s not a channel I watch frequently, but TNT has been showing movies all day today with the least amount of commercials I have ever seen! Normally a TV station shows about 44 minutes of programming per hour with about 16 minutes of commercials, I’d have to say TNT has cut it back to about 10 minutes worth of advertising per every hour of broadcast, and let me tell you, it’s a WONDERFUL change!

Today we’ve managed to catch a couple of the Fast and Furious movies and tonight I’ve been chilling out with my daughter watching Titanic, one of my all time favorite movies! I used to have Titanic on DVD, but sometime over the past few years I’ve apparently lost it, so it’s nice to watch it tonight with very minimal commercial interruptions!

I’m happy to report also that my daughter is much happier with her “new to me” computer now that we’ve been able to give it a little extra computer memory late this afternoon to help it run a little faster! It’s not that it wasn’t running well before that, it’s just that it was a little laggier than it needed to be in order to run some of the games and programs she uses.

I haven’t received any more phone calls today from family members, and right now I need it to stay that way! Most of the sickness I felt earlier has passed and I was actually able to keep the few bites of mashed potatoes that I ate at dinner time down, which is a HUGE plus!

Anyway, I need to get back to the movie and my daughter, she’s getting a bit impatient with me…LOL! This is one of her favorite movies too!

I know that the products I had for my children when they were small were much better and far more advanced than the products that were available when I was in the first few years of my life. For instance, when I was a baby, car seats weren’t used, let alone mandatory. My mom has told me stories about how she would hold me in her arms when we were in the car (She didn’t have a drivers license, so she didn’t drive when I was a baby). My point is that technology had advanced in a big way from the time I was born until my children were born, and it has only gotten better since!

My children are a little more than 2 years apart in age, and one of the things that made my life the easiest when they were small was a good stroller! One of the worst things about strollers, even 13 years ago, was the fact that they were heavy and awkward! On top of that, if you wanted to take it anywhere that didn’t offer paved walks or smooth floors, you played heck trying to push it!

Parents these days have the benefit of advanced technology as well as the experiences from parents like me to thank for things like the Bugaboo stroller. These are, without a doubt, one of the most awesome strollers I have ever came across and I wish like heck they had these when my kids were little! Not only are they nice to look at, they are also light weight, compact, very well built and offer parents the ability to not only use them in places that offer paved paths and finished floors, they can easily be used in areas with rough terrain like paths and grassy areas!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad that strollers had advanced from what they were when I was a small child to where they were when my own children were small, but a Bugaboo stroller would have been nice to have had VS the strollers that were available when my children were small!

Sometimes I just feel like throwing my arms up in the air and yelling I’M DONE at the top of my lungs! Why is it when stressful times in my life seem to go away, new stressful things come in?

It’s been two weeks since we buried my nephew. His death and funeral provided four of the most gut wrenching, stress filled days I have experienced in a very long time. But thanks to the support of my wonderful husband and children as well as several online friends, I made it through those days. Then with the success of finding a job this past Wednesday, it finally felt like some of the drama and stress that was going on in my life was about to subside.

You know, the affects that stress have on your body are amazing! I swear stress is better than even the best fat burner when it comes to weight loss! It prevents you from being able to eat, and it causes migraines that induce nausea and vomiting, at least it does in me! This is exactly where I’ve been since around 10 PM last night, thanks to a family member.

I’m being accused of losing/misplacing the memory card from my late nephew’s digital camera. I brought the camera home 2 weeks ago when I was making his video. I took the card out of his camera, put it in my computer, copied the pictures off the card that his family wanted used, put the card back into his camera and put the camera back into it’s bag. I am 100% certain that this is what I did because I told my husband as I was putting the card back into the camera that the last thing his family would want right now would be for me to lose or damage the memory card. I had the top of my desk 100% cleaned and organized while I was working on his video so that nothing would get damaged or lost.

I’m the first person to admit to and fix what I’ve done wrong and correct my mistakes when I can. Keeping his memory card serves me absolutely no purpose or benefit. I know what I did and exactly how I did it, I also know what I didn’t do. I can’t fix this and it’s ultimately going to cost me my entire family and what pisses me off is that I didn’t do anything wrong! So, I’m throwing my hands up in the air and giving up. At this point in time I’m not sure I’ll ever do anything for anyone again because it causes nothing but stress and grief!