Holly’s Happenings

I’ve sat here all night crying and wondering why such a young and vibrant man is now forever gone from this earth. It’s probably been one of the most painful nights I’ve spent in many, many years and unfortunately it’s only the beginning.

Around 11:45 last night I received a phone call from my sister. As soon as I heard her voice I knew that the news was not going to be anything I wanted to hear, she could barely speak through her tears. She told me that my brothers oldest son’s body had been found and that he had apparently drowned while he was fishing in a local river. It’s been over 5 hours now and I’m still in complete disbelief, it just does not seem like something that is even remotely possible and honestly, I don’t want it to be true!

I’m worried about his parents (my brother and sister in law) as well as my mother. My sister told me that they had to call an ambulance for my sister in law tonight and even though it was obvious she needed medical help, she refused to go to the hospital. She’s had some fairly serious health problems over the past few months and getting the news that her eldest son was gone brought some of her health problems back up to the surface. I also am worried about my mother. She has spent so much of her life giving and doing for her children and now her grandchildren, they are her whole world and this loss is going to take a very hard toll on her!

I know that death is a part of life, it’s been a part of my life for many years now. But knowing that doesn’t take the pain away or make it any less. All I can think of is what a beautiful young man he was and what a wonderful future he had ahead of him. He had been planning a wedding, he was an Uncle to two adorable little boys, a brother, a son, a grandson, a great grandson, a nephew and a cousin, and my heart is absolutely breaking right now! It’s almost unimaginable that I will never see his smile again or stand on my tip toes to put my arms around him and give him a hug. It’s just so impossible to believe that he’s gone! I’ve cried all night wishing that this was nothing more than a horrible dream and that I’d wake up and have it not have happened, but the pain in my heart right now tells me that’s not going to happen. It hasn’t even been a whole day and I miss him so much already!

Rest In Peace Eric, you will forever be in my heart!