I can tell already that tonight is going to be one of my sleepless nights. We’ve spent the day going through periods of freezing rain, we currently have about 1/4″ of ice on everything outside. But we’re very fortunate, we still have power, phone and satellite. But schools are already delaying for tomorrow morning. My daughters school is currently on a 2 hour delay, but my son’s school hasn’t delayed “yet”. I dread what I’ll go through tomorrow morning if it’s not, it will be a huge argument. It’s not that I blame him, but it’s also not something that we can do anything about and I wish he would understand that.
I spent today decorating the Christmas tree and putting some decorations up. But the fact of the matter is I’m simply not in a holiday mood. I dread what the next two weekends bring. Next weekend is the surprise birthday party for my mom and step father and a gathering of all of us kids. It’s the type of gathering that I have avoided for the past several years, the type of gathering that I dread. I don’t like being around my step father or my step siblings, I’m sick of their “I’m better than you” attitudes. I don’t fit in at these type of get togethers, but I’m going for my mom.
The weekend after that is Christmas with my mom, this year we’re having it at my sisters house. As much as I like Christmas with mom, my sister is turning it into a three ring circus by inviting every other family member that wants to come. If ANY of my step siblings show up, it will be the final straw! They are the main reason I no longer go to Christmas at mom’s house. I wanted to have Christmas here this year, but my sister made a big fuss about the dogs and the fact that they get so excited and jumpy when people come to the house. I tried to explain to her that they do eventually calm down, but it didn’t matter, so I agreed to just have it at her house.
But I’m just not in the mood for Christmas this year. Putting the decorations on the tree just felt BLAH! I just felt grumpy and depressed all day. I don’t know why and I don’t know what’s going on to cause this. I guess it’s just the cold weather blues that I sometimes get this time of the year.
So I’m sitting here tonight, everyone is already in bed, but I can’t sleep. The dogs keep freaking out, I know it’s because there is some wind going on outside. But I also had the motion light come on at the slider door here by my desk, and although I didn’t see anything I got freaked out. So I pulled the curtains tight and pulled the blinds on the windows in case there is someone or something out there….LOL! Secretly, I’m hoping the kids don’t have school tomorrow, but don’t tell them I said that.
I’ll try to take pictures of my tree tomorrow. It turned out OK. Apparently I told my husband to throw out my artificial tree after Christmas last year. Honestly, I don’t remember saying that, but I also don’t doubt that I said it…LOL! We have a real tree this year, but most of my lights didn’t work, so I just decided that I was going to make do with what lights I had rather than sending my hubby out on the icy roads to buy more. I also didn’t have any icicles or garland, so the tree just has lights and ornaments. To me, it looks very depressing, but my daughter, who did most of the decorating, says it looks awesome, so I told her I thought it looked awesome too. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very thankful that we have a tree this year, but I was tempted not to put one up at all. That’s how NOT in the holiday mood I am.
Anyway, enough of this depressing rambling, I’m going to play a game. Thanks for listening!
